Tuesday, January 12, 2010
We're Fine, Really
yesterday i was told that somebody was worried about me. they thought that derek and i looked like we were not happy with eachother at church on sunday. i don't know who this person is, because i heard it through someone else, but they couldn't be more wrong. we're fine, really. i think we're doing great, unless there is something i don't know about. i mean, as far as our relationship goes, everything is cool. we're still in love with eachother and we tell eachother that several times a day. now, i've never been one to use the love word too much when it comes to people, so i really have to feel it to say it. i just don't know what was seen to make someone think that something is wrong. i can't figure it out. unless i made a face that i don't remember making. i don't even remember getting upset at church. well, at least not when i was with derek. we did go to a new sunday school, but then derek got a bloody nose and left. he didn't come back. maybe it was someone in the class. they wouldn't have known about the bloody nose. i guess it could have looked bad since the sunday school class was a marriage class. anyway, i was upset in the class because the teacher kept calling on me. i guess she didn't realize that my anxiety issues make it difficult for me to speak in a class at all. she knows i don't like to teach, but it was a small class so she must have thought it was okay. it wasn't. it took everything i had in me not to start crying. if you're reading this, don't ever call on me in a class. pure and simple. unless i raise my hand. anyway, it must have looked bad that we went to a marriage class and my husband walks out and doesn't return. now that makes me laugh! i wonder if that's what really happened. anyway, i guess it doesn't do any good to wonder. we know how we're doing and that's all that matters.